Monday, April 30, 2007

星期一,阴天

Yay!考试终于结束了!好开心!

为了庆祝这特别开心的日子,我和一群传媒系同学考试过后一起到一家西餐厅去大吃一顿。平时很少跟他们相处,因为除了上课的时间看到他们以外,下课后也没和他们混在一起。比起学校里的朋友,我还是和宿舍的朋友比较要好。不过,因为惠玲和大奶彬都是明天才考完,所以今天她们不能和我庆祝。

吃完东西,我们一起在附近的商店逛。来到了一间礼品店,里头卖东西都好精致,好可爱!一走进店里,大门的左边就是一个放满装饰品的柜子,五颜六色,琳琅满目。看见其中一样,突然心血来潮,想把它买下。它是一位很可爱的小女孩,穿着粉红和白色的长裙,头发绑成两个小辫子,水汪汪的大眼睛往前看,双手捧着一朵红色的玫瑰花。装饰品底下还写了一句话:“I give my love to you”。我想起Ah Toot,想起我决定做的事。买这个送给他,既能表示我的诚意,也能表达我的心意。于是,虽然不便宜,我还是把它买下了。朋友看我买这份礼物,都好奇地问我要把它送给谁。我骗他们说不是要送给人的,只是觉得很可爱,想买来送给自己。他们都不相信,但幸好也没继续追问。

傍晚,我回到宿舍,站在门前找钥匙。找了10分钟,把包包里面的东西都翻出来了,还是没有钥匙。天啊!我怎么那么糊涂!一定是早上去考试前,没把钥匙放进包包,而大奶彬当时在房里,我也不必锁门,才没发觉自己忘了带钥匙。大奶彬已经出去和同学温书了,不知道什么时候回来。我传了一则简讯给她,问她能不能早点回来帮我开门。

“晓芬?你怎么站在门外?”

转身一看,原来是志聪。心里马上有一种想逃跑,又不知道该怎么逃跑的犹豫。

“哦。我忘了带钥匙。”

“哈哈。怎么这么糊涂?你在等大奶彬啊?要不要先上来我房间坐一下?”

“哦…不必了…大奶彬很快就会回来了。”

志聪看起来好像有点失望。“哦。那,我留在这里,陪你等她回来吧。”

“Huh?不用了啦。你在这里陪我,很浪费时间的。”

“没问题。现在是我的休息时间,休息后回去温书,效率更高!”

“哦。”

唉!还是逃不了。

一时之间没话说。感觉很奇怪。因为我知道了不该知道的属于志聪的秘密,而这个秘密又直接关系到我,但我也不能让志聪知道我知道他的秘密,可是我又很想告诉他我知道他的秘密,然后让他死心。哇。我们之间的情况还真够复杂。

聪:“你今天考完试,对吗?”

“嗯。”

聪:“有和同学去庆祝吧。还买了礼物!”

“哦…嗯。”

聪:“我现在陪你等大奶彬,这份礼物不是要送给我咯?哈哈。”

听到这句话,我突然很自然地完全没有经过思考就回答了一句:“不可以。这是要送给我喜欢的人的。”

天啊!我在干嘛?!怎么会这样脱口而出?我一定是太累了。不然,就是考完试,过于轻松,脑袋也变瘫痪了。

志聪的表情明显沉重了。“你喜欢的人?”

一不做,二不休!既然已经说了,就狠狠把事实告诉他吧!

“是啊。不过,你应该不认识他。因为,他不住我们宿舍的。”

平时很多话,很搞笑的志聪,这时完全没有反应。看见他这个样子,我好内疚。好想过去安慰他,告诉他我还是把他视为非常要好的朋友。可是,我不能。我必须装作什么都不知道。

幸好,就在这时,大奶彬回来了。志聪对我说了一声再见,就匆匆回去了。

今天这样对志聪,有错吗?

60 comments:

Cindy said...

zhi chong so ke lian...he must have been hurted by the "不可以。这是要送给我喜欢的人的。"...but...i still prefer DTF to be with ah toot!they are a perfect match!and they like each other so much...and turn one round...and after so many obstacles...hope they can be together again and forever =) jiayou DTF and ah toot!

Anonymous said...

YA...hope dtf can be with ah toot too

Anonymous said...

I think you did no wrong. One day, Zhi cong will have to get the fact that you like ah toot. But maybe it's just too soon for him to know already.

Hope you can be with Ah Toot.

Anonymous said...

Since you know who you prefer, it's better to tell zhi chong the truth then to give him false hope. Personally I hope to see dtf to be with ah toot but based on previous episodes, ah toot seem to have a change of heart. if it's true, think dtf will have to bear some of the responsibility - 'cos she took so long to make a decision when ah toot had expressed his feelings so many times - felt so sad for him when dtf did not reciprocate.

Anonymous said...

DTF did the right thing - open to her true feeling and come clean with ZC (rather than to drag him along) .. although at this point, we don't know whether Ah toot would still love and accept her... from the storyline, somehow I feel their relationship is going to face some unnecessary hiccups ... hope not ... its always good and with great pleasure to seeing good endings.

Anonymous said...

eh... at least he can get the facts right from the start... yupz.. definitely he'll be sad la.. and not a very good time to break the news during exam.. but since she already blurted out the "不可以。这是要送给我喜欢的人的。"... so might as well la... actuallie it's 长痛不如短痛... let him be sad for a while.. after he get over it can still be good frens...

actuallie like tt also quite good la...at least dun haf to wait till he come and 表白 then muz reject him.. i think tt will strain their friendship more...

zyang said...

at first i tot the story is like fairy tale kind, where the princess and prince can live happily ever after sort of de.. but based on some previous plots.. it seems like my perception is wrong.. dtf and ah toot seems like they are not going to get together somehow.. and dtf jus told zhi cong tat she alrdy gt someone she likes.. now the story seems to me that in the end dft has neither ah toot nor zhi cong haha.. things get reali excited after the exams.. wooohoo~~

Ni Ni said...

不知道为什么有个预感,ah toot好像不会接受大头芬,希望是我猜错!!我很向往学生时代那种纯纯的爱情,我觉得能跟自己喜欢的人一起上学是一件很幸福的事,但我从来没有尝过!!我的初恋时18岁开始的,而我的男朋友比我小,所以根本就没有机会一起上下课,不过我们的感情还算稳定,交往到现在,感情还是很好!!
大头芬,造着自己的感觉走,如果心里决定了,就勇敢去做!!!感情世界里,根本就没有谁对谁错,所以你也不用觉得自己这么做对志聪不公平,我觉得你应该早点跟他说,长痛不如短痛啊!!
加油,期待你的好消息哦,期待你跟ah toot有步入教堂的一天,期待小ah toot和小大头芬的出现哦!!哈哈~~

Ni Ni said...

看到大头芬的日记就让我想起来以前暗恋的对象,那真是个痛苦的回忆!!!其实也该怪自己,就是因为自己的优柔寡断,将一段本来会发芽的爱情摧毁,想起来就觉得那时的自己很讨厌!!所以,大头芬,爱一个人就要勇敢的说出来,不要担心太多,因为想越多,就越没有勇气对他说哦!!不管做什么事,都要果断点,不然将来会后悔哦!!就像我这样,当初如果有勇气将误会解释清楚,今天就不会闹到连朋友都没得做!

ahdee said...

hmm i somewhat agree with ni ni abt the ah toot not accepting part... somehow it feels that way.. hopefully i am wrong wor.. if not really very sad sia

Anonymous said...

somehow.. i think the story wont be so smooth.. SAD. i think the story will have a twist suddenly about ah toot.

reginaelon said...

這是我第一次流言,一心想當一個聽眾和讀者,但是今天的那一句 “一不做,二不休!” 讓我不得不流言。小芬,真羨慕你的勇气与直爽。多麼希望我能有你一半的勇气。哈哈。真希望ahtoot會和大頭芬在一起。據情越來越精彩了。can't wait for the continuation. 佩芬不要讓我們等太久好嗎? 真想要ahtoot的考試快點考完。

Anonymous said...

Yes yes....I also look forward to see Da Tou Fen and Ah Toot together.I think Da Tou Fen didn't mean to say this to Zhi Cong.It is better to let him know the truth than give him false hope...the truth must have hurt Zhi Cong alot.Hmm...hope they can still be good friends =D

Anonymous said...

feel sad for zhichong but he has to face that sooner or later...
Glad that DTF has chosen ah toot..

Anonymous said...

Hi..

1st time leave comment after reading DTF story...
so nice!! cam batte pei fen!!
yup hope DTF can be 2gether wif ah toot

jia yo! jia yo!

Anonymous said...

晓芬,有主见是好的,而且如果你不知道志聪喜欢你,你也会这样告诉他的.

佩芬,俊辉应该不会要出国留学的..hor?

bittergourd said...

DTF:

Well, glad that you are brave enough to tell Zhicong that you already have someone you like. It is a bit disappointing for him but it is better than giving him false hope. Let's wish that he could come to terms with it soon and you will still remain as good friends.

Peifen,

Another sad entry again, well it is as expected.Many readers are eager to know the outcome. For me, I dun like too much of this type of emotional entries. Seems to me this type of entries are very popular, from merely 30 comments previously to the 50-60 comments now. Anyway, be it sad or happy entries, I will continue to support the show.

Anonymous said...

yeah, i pity zhi chong but it's better to know now (chang tong bu ru duan tong) at least he wont embarrassed himself when he biao bai to DTF. hope he wont fen xin when he study for his exams though. hope they still remain like good friends. anw, is something going to happen to ah toot?? you havent being talking abt ah toot and tian cai cing.

jia you pei fen!!!

Anonymous said...

hey pei fen! nice story line but i still prefer the last time post where they are all innocent and simple esp the part where DTF went to ah toot's house! super funny! hahah:D

anw, jia you pei fen!!

<3 weee

Anonymous said...

haiis ... hope dat in tha end ... zhicong wont be too upset ... jus feel hurt alittle bit bahs ... becos everyone wants an toot thu be wif dtf ... dtf !! uu mus jiay0uu !! but plwease dun hurt zhicong too deeply ... haiis ... let zhicong like someone else bahs peifen !! BWHAHAHA . l0ls -.-

Anonymous said...

it's right for DTF to tell zhicong.. but i tink it shldn't be at this time... zhicong is still having his exams... he will be affected by it... poor zhicong...

Anonymous said...

aiyo.. though da tou fen did no wrong by telling zhicong.. but.. BUT.. should have tell him after his exam ma.. like that will affect his mood to study de leh.. so sad.. cannot concentrate..

卫斯理 said...

大头芬早就应该和志聪说清楚了,免得他期望越大,失望越大。而志聪虽然会失望难过,但如果真心爱一个人,不应该只想着占有她,而是希望她能得到幸福,即使那个给她幸福的人不是自己。

Anonymous said...

i see no wrong. in fact, its right. though its bit cruel to treat zhi chong that way. but, if you hide the truth from him,he'll still carry hope. and in time to come,whn he finds out abt ah toot, he'll feel even hurt.so yeaps. what you did is correct:)
hope that you can be with ah toot:)
best wishes;)

Anonymous said...

arhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh hope ah toot can be with da tou fen.. da tou fen rawks!!! hen qi dai ming tian de da tou fen...lov ya.

Anonymous said...

why yesterday one is @ 8.40? not @ 8.30 one meh?

Turtle Lee said...

haiz... da tou fen i think he like you leh. just find one day and tell him that you don't like him and wish to remain as very good friend. then find a day as tell ah toot your love for him... :)

Anonymous said...

被如此的无心伤害,还要尽量装成若无其事.咳! 痴情的人特别可怜.

老天最爱作弄人, 爱情总是在不对的时候出现, 决定也总是在不适当的时候下得. 希望老天不会这样作弄大头芬吧.

祝福天下所有的有情人都能终成眷属.

Anonymous said...

I think DTF should be with A toot...because they are a perfect match...

Anonymous said...

It's best to tell zhi cong the truth that the person DTF loves is not him.. I think what u do is correct..

Anonymous said...

ya lor ya lor i think most likely
DTF wont be with ah toot in the end

love is like tat one it seems...

when u don wan him, he will wan to be with u
But when u wan to be with him, he will be leaving u...

hope it wont turn out like tat!!!
really hope they will be together sia:)

Anonymous said...

its good that DTF tell Zhi Chong that she dun like him but i still prefer DTF & Zhi CHong together

h.o.n.g.y.i. said...

i think DTF shouldn't be so direct to zhichong..but she did a right thing..guess now zhichong will 死心.

Anonymous said...

Aiyo...Too harsh le...But think not DTF fault... =)
But i guess, zhi cong will be down for a long time...DTF must at least say sorry? Or maybe not..Scarely zhi cong thinks he still have a chance..haha...

Sophia said...

u're not wrong of cos!
it's better to tell him now then later.
he might get even more hurt later.
=))
DTF and AhToot JIAYOU JIAYOU!

Anonymous said...

but what abt ah toot? frm the previous posts, can tell that there's something that he's hiding... and i think ah toot shld also be quite popular with girls ba...

Anonymous said...

DTF:U'r nt in the wrong.it's better u tell him now rather than later. cos "chang tong bu ru duan tong".Although Zhicong lyk u alot, he must jie shuo the fact that u dun lyk him.U lyk Ah toot but i feel that Ah toot might reject u..=x maybe i'm thinking to much..But still wish DTF&Ah toot can be together.=p

Anonymous said...

ai ya i guess wrong i tot the words is I LOVE U six letter who know its i give u my love -_-

Anonymous said...

Hey i sent the email and my answer was correct but how do we noe who's the winner of the mystery prize Peifen is going to give? =x

drum-boarding said...

ouch.. i can feel zhi cong de feelings.. all of those i tried to surpress in the depths of my heart...

Anonymous said...

wrong in the sense u tell him the wrong time
it definitely will affect his mood to study as he now got nothing to look forward to.and is sad.

right in the sense u have to tell him that u dont like him.

Anonymous said...

You didn't false....
b'cos "ai yi ge ren mei you chuo"
ZHi Chong also ke lian,but DTF can told him early better delay his time....
"Chang Tong Bu Ru Duan Tong"
This is very very true....
If DTF Got any action to Ah Toot,please action more fast b'cos AH Toot almost want to given up already....
Dun given up,DTF And AH TOOT...
onE MORE THING,DTF muz go to explain to ZHi Chong about your opt,at least say sorry first....
ZHI CHONG DON'T SO BE UPSET AGAIN....
Hope AH TOOT & DTF happ together....
Jia You Ba Everyone....

Anonymous said...

Zhi cong very poor thing but ah toot is the one DTF like so sooner or later he will know. Maybe its better for him to knw now then to fall for her deeper and get hurt more.

Really hope DTF will be with ah toot. Pf, pls let them be together!! DTF already made her decision pls dun make ah toot turn her down..

Anonymous said...

omg so ke lian.....
poor zhi cong mux b feelin sad
but....
i still prefer DTF 2 be wif ah toot dey r e perfect match!!!!
love dem 4 eva!!!


ps. jia youx peifen great plot:)

AH Toot said...

hi Pei Fen, just came back from my long holiday and vacation. It's quite a good thing for DTF tell ZC earlier of the truth. Short pain is better than long pain right? will keep on support you. By the way, have you visit my site before? is so can you leave a comment with your name stated. Really hope can receive some comment from you. Thank you.

Evil Care Bear said...

Wah.. so interesting.
I am looking forward to know Ah Toot's reaction when DTF give him the gift! :)
There isn't right or wrong in a relationship. It's good that you took the opportunity to let Zhichong know that you already have someone in mind.
Cheerios!

Anonymous said...

痛只是一下下。。。多数人还是善忘的。。。
等太久的人也可能不想再等。。。
当在调试自己的心情时,是否为另一方着想?五年的青春是一去不复返啊!

Anonymous said...

I used to have a 'ah toot' in my life for 5 years..cos i took too long time to make decision.. he had changed his heart..and go with my good fren

Elisa

Anonymous said...

我猜,ah toot变冷淡了,for duno what reason lar...然后阿芬会很难过的结束大学第一年。。。

我的理由是:因为大头芬好像还没碰到什么大钉子。早点遇到错泽比较好,不管它会是什么。

Chronotee

Anonymous said...

I find that Da Tou Fen is not wrong to be frank to Zhi Cong. No matter how, she will have to tell Zhi Cong about her feelings. Its just a matter of time. By telling him earlier would be good rather to let him develop a deeper feelings for Da Tou Fen and in the end get hurt even more. One has to be that cruel at times.

Do hope that Da Tou Fen will stick to her decision although Ah Toot seem to be cold to her recently. Can understand why Ah Toot is cold and took a long time to reply her SMS. As previously when Da Tou Fen knowing Ah Toot still have feelings for her and she did not give Ah Toot any answer or reply to him making Ah Toot think that Da Tou Fen has no intention to be together with him anymore. And I suppose Ah Toot is trying his ways to lighten his feelings for Da Tou Fen bah.

No matter how or what, I do hope there will be a happy ending for Da Tou Fen and Ah Toot. Jiayou Da Tou Fen!!

Anonymous said...

LOL

Fri only got 4words to describe

QING TIAN PI LI

already got hint ,suggesting ah tootz got a gf or admirer liao

cause he thursday night not free

normally if he will be joyous that DTF date him de,now after exam but he shift one day then meet her.

DTF dont be too sad.....

Anonymous said...

Being frank is beta than leading another person on ma...Harsh but 长痛不如短痛

Anonymous said...

相信这样对志聪或芬都好..与其让对方抱着空希望..倒不如一了百了...

人生就是因为不同的阶段遇见不同的人...才更明白在自己心中就重要的那位..

偶尔不妨停下脚步..摸索自己的内心世界...也许能找到意想不到的答案...

Anonymous said...

Hmm... DTF had hurt ZhiChong's heart liao... nobody can stop ZhiChong like DTF, but sometimes must take care of his feeling... too straight doesn't mean honest, sometimes really hurt others heart... feel sad towards ZhiChong...

And.. DTF seems that start face her heart towards Ah Toot liao ohh... when u see something and think that u want give to somebody, that means this person stand a HEAVY POSITION (VIP) in ur heart... ha...

Still wish to see AH Toot and DTF be together...

(<") Elaine (">)

Anonymous said...

hope ah toot can be back with DTF again.after one round DTF find out she still like ah toot.hope ah toot can accept DTF & be together again and forever. JIAYOU DTF & AH TOOT!

Anonymous said...

Well...for what I have been thinking was that, DTF may ask AT out and by any chance, get him to pay for her meal(provided DTF is standing beside him when he pay for the meal),if she sees her photo is still inside his wallet, then that proves that he still likes her. As for DTF, she could comment that he should change the old photo to a recent photo of her. In a way, AT may get the hint from her.

ken said...

I also think DTF did right.. Coz I've received countless such rejections b4. though it did break my heart, but at least u know how the other person feels.

ZC dont b too sad. i've had much more rejections. anyway, i also have a feeling DTF might not end up with AT. heaven really like to make fun of ppl. I'm one of the victims.

no matter what, jiayou DTF

> ni ni
at least u're more fortunate than me. I'm turning 24 this yr and i've yet to experience what love's like. liked a few girls b4 and expressed myself but i've nvr been successful. wonder when will my chu lian qing ren appear. T.T
sigghhhhhh

Anonymous said...

Actually zhi cong is really a good guy but i still prefer ah toot,maybe zhi cong and dtf meet too late already.But in dtf's heart actually ah toot still stand very importantly.Maybe shi qu cai hui geng jia zhen xi bah,anyway ah toot like get farther fron dft's life.Maybe because of exam or some other reason bah,but hope both of them will be together as couple again.Dtf must try harder to get at toot's heart back again and must be serious to keep the relationship stable again,don't blur blur again or fickle again.This story is really great.Keep up the good work.

Anonymous said...

Pei fen arh....

why havent post for wednesday story???
i've been waiting for so long....

goh91 said...

hope datoufen can b wif ah toot =/