Friday, December 28, 2007

晓芬,

上一次传送给你的电邮,不知道你是否看见了?

其实…我心里还有一些话,必须向你坦白。

几个月前,一些在新加坡的朋友告诉我,你有了很要好的男朋友。听到这个消息,我很心痛,也很懊恼。我开始逃避,不想再和你联络,以为这样就能忘记你。

就在我人生最沮丧的时候,欣怡到美国来找我。其实她是因为被派到美国工作,趁假期来探望我。很感动,因为她为了我牺牲了所有的假期,不只帮忙照顾我的饮食起居,也帮忙照顾我的父母。爸爸很喜欢她,每次看见她时,脸上的笑容比看见任何人都还要灿烂许多。连妈妈也觉得我应该考虑再和她在一起。我的确想过和欣怡破镜重圆,但,我真的做不到。

因为,占据了我的心的人,依然是你。

回来前一个星期的一个晚上,我因为和爸爸吵架,心情很烦,约了欣怡到pub去喝几杯。那晚,我喝了很多,最后还要靠欣怡送我回宿舍。到了宿舍,我再也支撑不住,完全崩溃,抱着欣怡痛哭了好久。我…也许是酒精作祟,我无法控制自己的情绪和举动,对欣怡做出了一些…不应该做的事,但我们并没有…你明白我的意思吗?对不起。真的很对不起。我…我不知道为什么自己会这么懦弱,这么没用。你一定很讨厌我对你那么坦白,但,如果我不把真相告诉你,我就再也不能面对你。

晓芬,对不起。你能够原谅我吗?

俊辉

36 comments:

hui- said...

omg! I can't wait for the last episode!! *crosses fingers for a happy ending* =)

白玫瑰红酒 said...

好开心~
终于可以看到新一期的大头芬的日记, 由于白天工作很累所以都是听重播的日记。 有的时候会因为没有在办公室而错过
看到ah toot 给小芬的信好开心哦~
我猜他们一定会在一起的~~ ^^

flobby said...

even tho im happy to see ah toot emailing dtf about his feelings, what he did with xinyi is disgusting and still unforgivable.

babygal said...

So happy. Hope DTF will be together with Ah Toot cause they both still love each other so much.

Hope it's going to be a happy ending.

Hapiness said...

Really hope that Ah Toot and Xiaofen can be together.. they've been like, in love with each other since the very beginning.. it's just that fate loves playing games with them aint it? ):

93raldin3 said...

hope DTF read the email...
otherwise is another misundersatanding....

strawberry said...

小芬,你好兴福, 有那么一个还痴痴爱着你的人。还是你所爱的。俊辉能够对你坦白和道歉, 证明你在他心里很重要和他的真心。原谅和接受他吧。你们会快乐的。

如果能够在现实生活中发生, 那该多好。我已经不敢有期盼了。

SHIZHENG said...

ahh!! last episode le! will miss the show lots!!

hope the two can get together.. if not all the best in their future life ! :)

Anonymous said...

wish they can be together!!!

有情人, 如果不能在一起, 很悲哀。。

evelyn said...

kinda expected da nai ping to do something....

kinda expected ah toot will finally take the initiative...

tho i wish to know the ending, but i hope time will pass so slowly, cos i really dun wan it to end so quickly....

i wonder how many people will sit by the radio at 830pm, listening to the grand finale, feel all the emotions it brought us through the many months.

and even more, i feel the nostalgic that this blog will never be updated again after the final episode.... one less place to visit when i come online.

all great things will eventually come to an end. sighs...

Xavi said...

天啊!!! i can't wait for the ending.. Santa didn't give me the gift i want. But i hope santa will give the gift which DTF and Ah toot wants.. Pleas...

Anonymous said...

i hope DTF forgives ah toot!! =)

liing_宁宁 said...

等了那么久。。终于可以看到俊辉说出真心话了~好开心!!既然是彼此相爱了,当然要好好把握这个机会!!毕竟要找到和自己相爱的人是很困难的~希望他们有好的结局!!!!!!
期待下一期~~

Anonymous said...

Xinyi is the poor thing too.. tt's the prob abt stories.. the ppl hu hurt most is xinyi.. is so unfair to her.. she is not in the wrong too.. but everyone onli cares abt the lead (ah toot n DTF).. xinyi is the victim..

本人名是欧舒颖,多多指教! said...

好盼望最后一极哦!
请问大头芬后还会有其他的有趣故事吗?

Anonymous said...

geee .. cant wait for the final episode. a bit sad cos its gonna end soon. love this story very much!! jia you pei fen ...

Anonymous said...

Happy ending pls pls pls pls pls...
really hope tat DTF & Ah Toot can be together....DTF jia you....

flobby said...

orz .. also, ah toot did not mention anything about xinyi telling DTF that ah toot does not want her to call him anymore? what's up with that? so ah toot didn't know that happened?

you need to upload all the december episodes to podcast.sg asap!

Anonymous said...

It is sad to learn what Ah Toot has done to XinYi. Hope DTF will forgive Ah Toot.

dong dong said...

Is reader "flobby" a saint? A mistake is a mistake, to be able to genuinely acknowledge one own mistake is a gentleman. Ah Toot can choose the easy way out by keeping quiet of his wrong-doing, the fact that he told DTF, shows he is a fine guy ... I feel, "Disgusting" is too strong a word to use on him.

On the other hand, what Xinyi said to DTF is really naive ... forcing herself towards Ah Toot - is really asking trouble for herself, she does not know the real meaning of love - it only gives herself away as being possessive, selfish ...

christine said...

sian... ending liao wad!!!

mk said...

Just heard the last episode pod-cast,...Yes! DTF & ah Toot are finally together or at least sound like they are walking on the path towards it.
Rejoice!

Wish that Xinyi will soon find her happiness as well. How nice if we can clone another ah Toot for her. Or if dual-gamy (jin zhen tou) if allow..??

Last but not least, hope that dj Peifen will soon find her 'ru yi lang qun' in reality.:)

Anonymous said...

今天晚上没有听到。但是明天的重播我一定要听,不然我会死不瞑目的!!!

kiat weih said...

今天没有听到晚上的大头的日记,但是明天的重播我一定要听,不然我会死不瞑目的,我还是想听到完美的结局。不想象(丁丁)=蔡依林德(一个人)!!!!

cookies said...

oh no..I missed the live broadcast. Can someone tell me the ending pls?

--ting-- said...

ermz, i tink after ah toot drank too much with xinyi, and mention he did something with her. i tink, i tink, that action he did is "kissing" only bah~~... Hahhaa!!.. Cos after that he say they "但我们并没有"...

If If If, ah toot kissed with xinyi, DTF also cannot angry... instead have to forgive him.. Muahaha~~~.... Cos DTF will know ah toot not 故意 kiss her de... Cos she also once got "酒后乱性" 的 experience mah... kekeke!!!

So really hope that they can be together!!! =D

Anonymous said...

也许ah toot真的是在无意之间伤害了xinyi。 但是在"3角恋"里(也不算是3角恋,因为DTF & Ah Toot从始之终都是爱着对方的。), 往往就是会有一人受伤啊。

而且, xinyi也尽力想要破坏Ah Toot & DTF之间的感情啊。 很幸好的, 她并没有"成功"。

但是, Ah Toot不知道对xinyi做了什么"不应该做的事"。 可是、 可是, Ah Toot接下去的那句话("但我们并没有…你明白我的意思吗?"), 很耐人寻味... 听起来好像不是和xinyi发生了身体上亲密的关系。

希望Ah Toot是没有和xinyi发生身体上亲密的关系吧。。。

期望Ah Toot和DTF会有一个美丽的结局。。。

cathy said...

终于看到日记了。。
晚上总是错过电台广播,白天也无法重厅。。
只能靠日记来了解最新的发展。。唉。。
天啊~~~ah toot终于都写信给dtf了。。
真得好期待能看到他们在一起的结局。。
但是,对感情有点要求完美的dtf会不会重新接受ah toot呢?
兜兜转转了这么久,希望dtf和ah toot最终能有情人终成眷属吧。。一切加油!!

flobby said...

"A mistake is a mistake, to be able to genuinely acknowledge one own mistake is a gentleman."

Oh yes I am a saint, thank you. I cannot tolerate man who would do something wrong due to drinking too much, and calls it "uncontrollable". Maybe I am being too harsh using "disgusting", imagining what will I do if my bf emailed me and told him that. I cannot forgive these kind of acts, I guess, while different people have their own different feelings and reactions to these kind of situation. For me, I feel that this is digusting. To you, you feel that I am a saint for feeling that way. In fact, you are the saint.

Ah Toot using XY as a "tool" for himself is forget DTF is bad too, even tho he did admit it is wrong too. XY is pretty pitiful too, if Ah Toot did not accept XY's love in the first place, nothing bad would have happened too .. but then again, of course there will be no drama too.

Anonymous said...

where is the last esp i miss the boardcast.. hope i can faster upload

tongtong said...

"hao she bu de datoufen de shi jie zhe me kuai jiu jie shu le, zhuan yan jian yi gen zhe gu shi gen le cha bu duo liang nian, chong zhong xue shi qi dao da xue zai dao she hui, he datoufen fen xiang le hen duo xiang tong de jing yan ye chong zhong xue xi le hen duo ren sheng bai tai, qi wang jie ju shi ge man yi ye nan wang de!^-^
peifen wan shui!^-^"

Faithful Student Wind said...

Hi
I hope that AH Toot and DTF will finally be together. Been a long time never read the blog. Got to listen on the last day of new year. Seen like they are going to be together,,, Hope everyone in the blog have a happy ending. May all the guys who is faithful looking for the other partner come true. May all of u find your true love this year:)

Mag said...

Pei Fen,
Please please upload the podcast soon. I missed the final episode. I been waiting for it. And also the december episode soon. thanks so much.

Anonymous said...

a little bit disappointed with the ending. Expect a more touching ending. Anyway good to know that dtf and Ah Toot are finally together.

Anonymous said...

我错过了两天的大头芬的世界。。
看到a toot 对大头芬的情义还是不变, 真叫人感动。 好像知道他们的结局是怎样的。佩芬麻烦你早点放上网站。。。 谢谢。加油大头芬, 我支持你。

RENIE == said...

Is thiz a real story or a fake one , altho im a chinese , bt i dun relly understand whther izzit real or not == cn anybody tell me?