Friday, December 07, 2007

12月7日,阴天,心情:茫然

这两天,病倒了。也许是之前就有点不舒服了,加上最近天气转凉,才会生病。医生说,我需要多多休息。

其实,现在生病是好的。至少我可以在吃了药之后,感觉到睡意。不然,我肯定睡不着。

可是,因为生病,我也只能呆在家里。除了看电视,也没什么其他的事可以做了。哦,当然还可以偶尔上上网。但,我每一次上网,都会感到很失望,很无助,很茫然。

因为,他不在。

那天过后,就再也没有Ah Toot的消息。尝试打电话,手机和宿舍的电话他都没接。尝试SMS,他没回应。尝试email他,也没有反应。虽然只是短短两天,但他的突然失踪,音讯全无,使这40几个小时的每分每秒过的好痛苦。

他是有意避开我吗?还是有意避开全世界?又或许,只是一场不幸的巧合,他可能把手机弄丢了,还是电脑突然坏了?一直没办法停止胡思乱想,一直努力地安慰自己,告诉自己Ah Toot没事,他不是在躲避我。

他的继母去世,对他来说,应该是蛮大的打击。虽然很久以前,Ah Toot曾经很讨厌继母,因为他不愿意让另一个女人取代亲生母亲在爸爸心里的地位。不过,继母的爱与宽容渐渐感动了Ah Toot,他也学会接受继母为家庭的一份子。我只见过Ah Toot的继母几次,每一次见面也没和她说很多话,但她的一举一动让我非常喜欢她。觉得她很温柔,很慈祥,一定是一个善良体贴的好妈妈、好妻子。难怪Ah Toot的爸爸会那么爱她。

Ah Toot的爸爸,他现在一定很伤心吧。从中学到现在,我一直是Ah Toot的好朋友,他的爸爸因此也很疼我,很关心我。Uncle每次出国,都会买一份礼物送给我,就连我的生日,Uncle都记得,每年一定会送上生日礼物和祝福。除了担心Ah Toot,我也很挂念Uncle,很想在这悲伤的时期给予他们一点点安慰。

不如,尝试打电话到Ah Toot在美国的住家?对啊,我怎么没早点想到?他现在应该不在宿舍,而是和爸爸在家里吧?Ah Toot曾经写信给我,信里面有他在美国的所有联络方法,我急忙翻箱倒柜寻找那封信。

找到了!一阵强烈的兴奋加快了心跳,这个感觉让我的病突然完全消失。小心地按着电话听筒上的按键,期待听见他的声音,却同时害怕结果会令人失望。

“喂?”

很惊讶。以为听电话的一定是男生,没想到传来了一把女声。

芬:“喂。请问俊辉在吗?”

“俊辉现在不在。你是谁?要我传话给他吗?”

芬:“哦,好啊。请告诉他,晓芬打了电话找他。谢谢。”

“你是晓芬?”

芬:“是啊。你是?”

“我是她的女朋友欣怡。俊辉要我告诉你,以后请不要再来烦他了。”

电话就这样挂断了。

36 comments:

Anonymous said...

omg, wad a turn of events.... :(

Anonymous said...

i think xin yi is faking it coz she's jealous dat DTF still on good terms with ah toot. maybe a way to chase her out of ah toot's life!

cathy said...

啊~~怎么这样?!好失望哦~~

cathy said...

啊?!怎么这样?!好失望哦~~~他们还是没办法在一起吗?

Anonymous said...

发生了什么事??? 为什么欣怡会在Ah Toot美国的住家???

在9月的时候, Ah Toot不是才邀请大头芬到美国去吗??? 相信一向善解人意的Ah Toot如果还是跟欣怡在一起的话, 他因该不会邀请大头芬到美国去了吧。

再说, Ah Toot不是早就和欣怡分手了吗?? 难道Ah Toot和她patch back了???

SQ047 said...

Xinyi is such a bitch!!! OMG! Jealousy is so terrible.

Lim said...

OMG?! why did xin yi appear to be with ah toot?! OMG? >< DTF dont give up! we always support you till the very end! believe in love and it might just come to you.. maybe as what they have said, xinyi might be faking it. if ah toot wanted to tell you what xinyi told him, he would have done it long ago.. JYJY you will forever have my support!

Anonymous said...

omg.. how come things turn out tis way? i tot tt xinyi din wanted to wait for ah toot.. how come suddenly she is there again.. haix.. dumb ah toot.. here xiao fen is waiting and worryin for u.. yet over there, u're missin in action and even havin a gf.. haix.. wad a disappointment...

Anonymous said...

oh, cannot wait to find out what will happen between Ah Toot and DTF.

babygal said...

I think that xin yi know that ah toot still love DTF and she want to break them up.

She hope that like that ah toot will be her but i think ah toot should tell her that he don't like her instead of letting her still think she has the chance.

Anonymous said...

真的好令人失望哦!希望好亲人终成眷属!


DTF, 要加油哦![:

*pH said...

haiz.. =((

93raldin3 said...

i think xin yi is not his gf... xinyi just jealous and Ah toot also sae that he dun hav any gf lol..

Anonymous said...

oMG,,how come is XY... XY must be lying..i cant believe that Ah Toot will say this kind of things..

Xavi said...

huh? This is such a big blow to DTF ah...

kukumalu said...

好意外。还以为大头芬买好了去台湾的机票后会跟ah toot说会陪他去探望亲戚。

F. said...

abit too over le la..

jackie tan said...

Datoufen should not be easily deceived by xin yi. Because of love, xin yi do all stupid thing to discourage datoufen. So datoufen, be smarter than xin yi, go all the way for ah toot! Never give up!

卫斯理 said...

大头芬,相信妳现在应该很难过,但是妳必须冷静一点。欣怡可能是个为了得到ah toot而不惜说谎的人。除非ah toot亲口跟妳说,否则一切都别先下定论。

Anonymous said...

Pei Fen!!!!! Update QUICK!!!
OMG!!! How can this be?

aPpLeSeEd said...

omg

eve said...

cannot be...

i just cant believe my ears and eyes!!!! no way!!!!

why like that???????

Anonymous said...

I guess AT is ill and maybe drying, so he ask XY to pretend as his girlfriend so that XF will forget him and will not be so sad he is not around. If he is no longer love her, why dun stop contacting her once he left, that the best chance right. Not till so many years later than ask her not to contact him anymore

jun1016 said...

好可惜哦~
a tool和大头芬真的是没有缘分。

siawlian said...

喂!怎么会这样?So sad le...But DTF,你不要那么轻易放弃哦!一定要查清楚哦!一定哦!!

Xavi said...

eh? how come today 11/12/07 repeat cast is an old one de.. so sad i miss monday telcast. hope the podcast will be up asap

Firefly said...

DTF, You must be hurt and ku1 le1 bu1 dong1 duo1 jiu3. But I feel, no matter what, you shld express yourself to Ah toot. Dun be selfish, give Him and Yourself a chance. I believe very much in Tian1 shi2 di1 li4 ren2 he2, so be brave and find This Time to talk to him. Hesitate no more.

Shen1 qie4 zu4 fu2.
Yao4 xing2 ah!

小暖 said...

真的好希望他們可以在一起~~

我想欣怡一定是騙大頭芬,因為她嫉妒大頭芬跟Ah Toot的感情好好,才騙她的~~

大頭芬,不要被她騙了,我們一定會支持你的~~

NIL (: said...

ahhs O.O long time never listen 了, paiseh! ><
XINYI?!
aw, I don't believe Ah Toot would call Xinyi to do that even if he don't like Xiaofen ><
anyway, gambateh!!! 加油加油!!!! XD

RinNa said...

晓芬,不要轻言放弃。更不能相信欣怡的单方面之词。你要相信你和ah toot不会就这样完了!加油!

Anonymous said...

大头芬加油,不要被欣怡骗

Anonymous said...

oh no!!! why got this xin yi come out of nowhere suddenly? poor DTF... sad sad...

Happiness is jus like a butterfly..... said...

so sad........

My Little Hide-out said...

Looking forward to the next update..
Hope that misunderstandings would be resolved soon. Hope to hear from Ah toot explaining to Xiao Fen that what xinyi said is untrue.. so sad. made me cried

Anonymous said...

happy ending plz... m fans of DTF...
so sad bEEn games over>.<
bEchEErfUl k, cOz I believe dE lovers wun be separate easily.. Dat's call Fate..**^_^ eVenthoUgh hadbEEn passed in a great round, definately@.@

Anonymous said...

I hate that Xin Yi! So rude 2 jus hang up on DTF! N Ah Toot's also too sacarstic!DTF JIA YOU!