Friday, June 29, 2007

星期五,多云

我的伤已经好多了。

昨天,为了答谢志聪在星期三对我的照顾,我请他吃午餐。大奶彬也和我们一起,到一家意大利餐馆吃了丰富的一餐。

可怜的志聪,把哥哥车子的后身撞坏了,哥哥非常生气,除了大骂志聪一顿,还说再也不会相信志聪,把车借给他了。志聪觉得很惭愧,为了补偿,他从自己的储蓄拿出$200给哥哥修理车子。其实,这件事不完全是志聪的错,我也要负责。可是,当我提议给志聪$100当赔偿时,他一口拒绝了。

我们吃饱后,我举手向服务生示意要结账。服务生把单据拿给我过目,我一边察看一边从钱包里拿出一张50块钱的钞票。因为一时没注意,在拉出那张钞票时,我不小心把钱包里的另外一张东西也同时拉了出来。那张东西从钱包掉落在地上时,我没看见,而是大奶彬看到了。服务生收了钱,向我说了一声谢谢,便离开了。

彬:“喂,你好象掉了东西。”大奶彬一边说,一边弯下身想要把那张东西捡起来,可是她拿不到。

志聪也弯下身,帮忙找那张东西。原来它就掉落在志聪的左脚旁边,于是,志聪伸出手把它拾起来。

我以为掉的是另外一张50块钞票,可是,打开钱包仔细看,才发现那张钞票还安全地塞在钱包里面。这时,我才惊觉掉出来的东西是什么。

志聪把那张东西拿了起来,没多看一眼,就交给我。

彬:“欸?是一张照片?”好奇的大奶彬马上从志聪手中把那张东西抢过去,我来不及阻止。

彬:“哦?!是你和…他的照片。”大奶彬看清楚照片的内容,抬起头很惊讶地望着我。

那张东西,是我和Ah Toot在中学时在东海岸公园拍的那张照片。

芬:“还给我。”我很着急,伸手想把照片拿回。可是,大奶彬竟然不肯交还给我。

彬:“你还收着这张东西干嘛?人家都不喜欢你了。你还傻傻地收着这没用的东西。”

听了大奶彬的话,我可以感觉到肚子里突然冒起一团火,那股热气直冲上我的胸腔,差点就忍不住破口而出了。

芬:“还给我!”我再次尝试伸手把照片拿回。

这次,我成功了,可是,因为大奶彬紧紧捏着照片,而我又强硬地把照片从她手中拉走,照片无法承受反方向拉扯的力量,终于沿着一条细小的裂痕碎成两半。

我手里的那一半,只有我的脸。大奶彬手里拿着的,应该就是有Ah Toot的那一半。

身体里面的火溶化了内心脆弱的深处,眼泪无法控制地流下来。

芬:“都说换给我了!”

大奶彬终于松开手,我把照片的另一半拿回,也不等服务生找钱,也没对志聪或大奶彬多说一句话,就离开了餐馆。

我留着泪,右手紧紧握着撕破的照片,独自搭地铁回宿舍。

39 comments:

Anonymous said...

poor zhi cong...

Anonymous said...

是该放手了。。我了解你的感受,但该放的还是得放。。不要再想ah toot了。

Anonymous said...

yay! first to comment...aww..i think dnb is so mean, i mean, its dtf's business, being a fren u shld comfort her instead chid her for rmb somebody, afterall, they are still veri good frenz, y spoil the whole thing? poor dtf, she must stand one more heartbreak, her onli memory with ah toot is destroyed

shirley said...

jiayou peifen...

MissJo said...

Da nan bin shld not hav done that... as a frend she shld knw better than anyone here...i pity zhi chong... he like a girl whom yet like him... its so hard to be self love... as for DHF... to like some one take 1 sec...to forget someone take forever... jia you jia you...you will walk out the situation!!!

NaRa said...

人往往都会为了得不到的人或物,留念,伤心, 放不下。

是虚荣心在作祟,还是真想,真爱?

得到了又怎样?会很高兴吗?还是也不过如此而已?

大家要想清楚喔!

dtf & others.. 加油!

Anonymous said...

some things need not be said out, some things are better left unsaid.. Jiayou Datoufen..
I seriously like this story...
touching..

Anonymous said...

u stillove ah toot..jus tell him ur feelings..

Anonymous said...

Agree with Little Angel, maybe it is 该放手的时候了。

Naraliya, 应你的话。。。"为什么人往往都会为了得不到的人或物,留念,伤心, 放不下。"

我在想。。。应该是因为我们以为曾经喜欢过,而得不到的人或物是最完美的,能让我们完美的感到幸福。然而,这样的‘以为’,我认为是不实际的,也不能让自己接受未来,也不能让自己成长。人不能选择世间的结果,但能选择自己的想法。而想法也可以改变未来,至少,好的想法能让你瞬间感到快乐。所以,我选择向前看。。。你要向钱看也行。哈哈。

过去,能怀念,不是放不下。不是吗?

Anonymous said...

hi,pei fen
so long din put a comment at here.mayb duno wan to write wat also..
is difficult to forget the person u love and somemore din let him know abt ur feeling yet..
mayb DTF can't put down Ah Toot is b'cos of Ah Toot also still got feeling v DTF.
is the story still will got Ah Toot there//?

i think pei fen will write down a attractive story..

pei fen,will always support u^^
jia you oh(^.^)

AH Toot said...

Did you have to torture yourselg like that... This really cause pain in my heart... make up your mind as soon as you can. Let go... or fight for your love...

Anonymous said...

唉。。。 如果我是志聪,我也会很受伤的。。。
(<") Elaine (">)

Anonymous said...

seems like DTF haven't forget ah toot.. i think that the photo being torn apart maybe a good thing too, cos it may cause DTF to really forget about the r/s between her n ah toot.. at least in the future when DTF open her wallet, she will not see the photo again..

Anonymous said...

oh i dreamt of u! we were chatting and laughing. but strangely u were massaging my foot! dun ask me. hah :)

closure is good for the soul. get better first. no hurries, it'll only be fair to ur next partner. i'm no guru but i know u know what to do, right? :)

Unice said...

XiaoFen, if you really still have feelings for Ah toot, then why don't you just go ahead to tell him, you need to get your feelings out inorder to have closure. Leaving it in your heart isn't a fullstop in your relationship, it will end up hurting more ppl. You are a kind soul, and i believe that you won't want that right? Telling him don't mean that you are fighting for this relationship, but rather ending it in a fuller and rounder fullstop.
Gambatte Xiao Fen!!

Anonymous said...

I think the reason DTF didn't tell ah toot that she loves him is because she thinks it's better for 1 person to suffer than 3 people to suffer.
DNB is so mean,as DTF's friend,she should advise DTF to let go of the photo herself instead of snatching the photo...cuz when DTF let go of it by herself,it will means she really let go...
But some things are meant to be memories...FOREVER..

Anonymous said...

zhi cong was there ...

93raldin3 said...

if u stil like ah toot just let him kno.
dun be like mi......
wanna tell also cant.

Anonymous said...

Da Nai Bing is just being honest!

Sometimes, you can't escape from reality, what is the truth cannot be altered!

The comments that I have made about these few people- _elly _ong or KK, _deline _an or AT, _ee _ing _ei or LTW and last but not least, _ndy _an or _an _im _uat AT or TKH, are true and fair, that explains why they did not take legal actions against me!

Anonymous said...

Perhaps it's meant to be...

Xavi said...

可怜的晓芬...咳.. 别难过了.. make a choice ba.. either to say out ur feeling then see if gt chance or nt.. if dun have.. den give up n move on.. or just give up... n wish ah toot & his gf all the best.

卫斯理 said...

放下,说起来很容易,真的要做时却可能比任何事都来得艰难。大头芬,不必强迫自己去尝试忘记或放下,就跟着自己的感觉走。或许,有个人会让妳有放下的勇气。或许,有一天妳会发觉妳已在不知不觉中放下了。总而言之,忠于自己最重要。

Anonymous said...

poor soul...

polestar said...

該放手?不該放手?好多人都提出了看法。

說似容易,要付諸行動,談何容易?



其中的酸甜苦辣,除了當事人,又有誰能真正了解?跟著感覺走,其他人說的只能儅意見。

愛與不愛,在於自己。

Anonymous said...

why she liike tad one?? the photo also not hers wad? poor datoufen...
i pity xiao fen u know??
den why xiao fen is not angry with da naio bin?? isn't she tooo gentle..
tooo gentle will get bully one lah....
when den will xiao fen's friends be more kind to her??? so sad!! @_@
and why can't da nai bin just give the photo back to xiao fen...
JIA YOU PEIFEN..
i support you 4ever...
DATOUFEN DE SHI JIE ROX!!
IT BRIGHT UP MY LIFE...

Anonymous said...

jia you...datoufen

Anonymous said...

i thing u need to say out ur feel u can't hide it in ur heart it bad for health too ( no by watching tv)

Anonymous said...

大奶彬这次有点过分了... 不是每个人都可以像她那么容易可以这么容易喜欢上另外一个人, 这么容易就放下一段感情... 这一点她应该了解, 如果她真的是她所说的 "过来人"...

我宁愿晓芬单身,也不愿她跟智聪交往... 不懂为什么,我总觉得智聪是那种看到能够穿裙子就追的男生. 而智聪对晓芬的感觉, 只是所谓的 Puppy Love 吧,玩玩而已..

因为,智聪认识晓芬不久而乙,还没到一年,却这么快就对她又这么深刻的感觉,为了一个认识不久的女生而失恋,会像他如此的折磨自己吗? 他那时的做法很想是做做戏而已,让晓芬同情他. 我觉得这种男生要小心一点比较好. 最讨人厌的,是对一个认识不久的女生,还敢抱她的腰? 不知他对了多少女人这么做了.. 晓芬要对智聪小心一点...

Anonymous said...

YALAH...
stupid DNB..
tink DTF like her meh??..
see one like one.. so fickle minded...DNB can u be more considerate anot?? *shakes head*

Anonymous said...

You may be able to throw away all the things that the one u loved had given but memories is the only thing that cannot be throw or easy off.
Isn't it just like words that were craved deeply on the stones...? So leaving the past ain't that easy at all.

DNB think that DTF not worth to keep thinking of Ah toot any further but is it really that easy to forget the 1st love? And will DNB able to forget her 1st love at the easy? If really, was that called true love?

Anonymous said...

DNB too mischief liao,she just broke off so thinking that since her exbf dont want her,no point she go think of he exbf anymore.thus she trying to implement same thinking onto DTF's mind.

DTF too poor things liao,must be super sad.but its seems heaven trying to tell that FATE is somehow ended at this moment.maybe part3 when DTF is working adult things then will be changed.else fate will remain the same if u dont go chase back ah tootz things will never change.

zhicong indirectly becomes a catalyst for DTF to face reality rather than to hold on to the past.

Peifen=Jiayou =P good work
=P

Ms Fan said...
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Ms Fan said...

why true love always end up this way...

huibing should tell ah toot what happen, eg tell him fen still kept the photo..tell him fen loves him

its torturing...有情人为何难以终成眷属

Anonymous said...

aiyo.. seem like DTF still like Ah toot. Hope after this incident, DTF will get over it soon and start her new chapter

Anonymous said...

Aiyo.. Dun blame DNB leh. Can u imagine how much she hate ah toot for hurting her best friend? Afterall DNB is closer to DTF compared to ah toot.Of course she cant forgive him....

Anonymous said...

This episode story is so touching. I almost cried out.

Anonymous said...

its hard to get over a past relationship... 所谓“问世间情为何物,只叫人生死相续”。。。

小芬,要加油!!!不能忘记ah toot不要紧,要懂得放手就好,不要让这段不了情影响你!!!:D GAMBATTE!!!

Anonymous said...

so asd story...

Anonymous said...

Hate DNB! She sux!