Friday, March 16, 2007

星期五,晴天

大奶彬最近好象很忙。每次约她下课后一起吃饭或出去逛街看电影,她总是说没空,不是要赶报告,就是已经约了学校的朋友。可能商业系的功课真的很忙吧。可是,我们宿舍里的邻居Sammie和惠玲也是商科一年级学生啊,怎么不见得她们和大奶彬一样忙呢?

又或许,大奶彬的朋友真的很多吧。她长得那么漂亮,人品又好,人际关系也好,无论男生女生,都会喜欢和她做朋友。哪儿像我,长得平凡,性格又内向,不喜欢跟不认识的人哈啦。有时候,难免会想,自己和大奶彬相比,真的差好多。曾经告诉志聪我这个想法,他说每个人都有优缺点,我有的优点,是大奶彬没有的,只是我不把那些优点当优点看待。我的性格内向,不太会交际应酬,但志聪觉得,这是因为我交朋友很谨慎,只有那些我完全信任的人,才能够进一步了解我。其实,志聪说的没错。我不会也不要向一些刚认识的新朋友倾诉心事,因为我觉得认识不深,不能相信他们。在大学快一年了,真正可以聊的朋友也只有大奶彬,Ah Toot,志聪,惠玲而已。在学校上课,虽然也认识了一些不错的朋友,但和他们除了讨论功课,偶尔发一发牢骚以外,就没聊其他的了。所以,到现在,我还是只有那几个朋友。有时会胡思乱想,要是有一天,这几个我认为是好朋友的人突然抛弃我,或出卖我,那我一定很可怜,因为没有其他的朋友。而每次想到这里,我就会想起好多年前和Ah Toot分手时,在东海岸公园的一个亭子下,我们对彼此说的一句话:“我不想失去你这个朋友。”这句话,总会让我的心微微抽一下,有点酸酸的感觉。不过,它也让我觉得暖暖的,不禁开心地微笑。我相信,就算其他朋友都离开了我,至少还有Ah Toot,他一定不会不要我这个朋友的。

大奶彬今天也没空和我一起吃晚餐,我便和惠玲还有志聪一起到宿舍附近的购物中心吃快餐。吃完东西,我们就在那里随便逛逛。走到超级市场,惠玲说要买东西。正当我们要走进去时,我看见一位身穿黑色无袖上衣和黑色长裤的女生,一手拿着装满杂货的塑料袋,一手拿着公事包,匆匆忙忙和我擦肩而过。在那一刻,我觉得这个女生好熟悉,好像在哪里见过。但,她走得太快了,我来不及看清楚她的脸。

哦!我知道了!是美云!

美云是我中学时的一个好朋友。中三那年,她在班上就坐在我旁边。虽然性格截然不同,但因为很谈得来,所以我们的感情蛮要好的。可是,中学毕业后,我们就失去联络了。主要原因是,我的成绩比较好,可以升上初级学院,而美云则比较不幸,成绩不知为何,出乎意料地差,所以没办法升上初院,连其他学府都可能考不上。经过那一次的打击,美云就不在和我联络。我有尝试找她,但打电话SMS都没回应。后来,她换了电话号码,我也就完全没办法联络到她了。觉得蛮可惜的,因为很重视美云这位好朋友。但,就因为了解她,所以也知道,以她这样的性格,如果她不愿意继续和我做朋友,我再怎么努力也没用。

那位女生真的很像美云。她看起来好像是刚买了东西,在回家的途中。她是否住在附近?希望我还有机会碰见她。

26 comments:

Anonymous said...

i also hope tat we can be friend forever like dtf n atoot...
dont noe she think like i did?

Anonymous said...

Hopefully DTF will always together with all best friend.....
jia you

J.me Ko said...

I hope u can be friend with 美云again... and dont be too afarid to mkae friend... i also make friends when i;m working.. helps alot...

bittergourd said...

DTF:

Being introverted does not render one less successful. Introverts are just more cautious and passive. They have strengths such as knowing when it is the right time to talk, when it is not the right time, when it is best to tell someone his feelings when it is not. No doubt they have few friends, but they treasure their friendship a lot more than others. It is okay to be introverted but not okay to be a self centered, conceited person. Don't compare yourself with DNB, each one of us is different. Just like Zhicong said, you have your strengths, just that you don't realize them.

Perhaps DNB might even admire your kindness, your mature thinking. Sometimes, friends don't tell you directly what they are thinking. Be happier okay! As for Meiyun, no point having hopes to regain the friendship if she is bent on
isolating from you. I believe she ahs her reasons, maybe she feel inferior over her failure in the O levels. If possible, of course would hope to see that she will think through and be friends with you once more.

Peifen,

I have a lot of thoughts from this short episode, especially the part on the lost friendship. I used to have a good friend MJ in Secondary school, but we are no longer in contact after he enters Poly and I enter JC. During JC times, I thought of how wonderful it would be if he was around. Now, it is okay. Perhaps there is no such thing as friends forever; to me at least having spent 2 years with this friend is enough to make me have pleasant memories. Thanks for having this episode.

Anonymous said...

i like reading dtf diary, jia you okay, pei fen ^^

Anonymous said...

哈哈。大头芬和我有一样的恐惧啊!
对我而言,要信任一个人很难很难......
可是大头芬比我幸福哦,你有的好朋友比我要来的多。不需要把自己和别人相比啊。人人都不同吧。
我一直相信;尽信朋友不如没朋友!
加油加油佩芬&大头芬((:

Anonymous said...

no matter what happens we'll always be around to support you =)

and u did a WONDERFUL job yesterday over at mayday's mini concert cum autograph session =) everyone was so high hehe..lets rock the hse on 2nd june yipee~

jiayou pei fen!!

Anonymous said...

Based on the story about the lost friendship part and about DTF envious of DNB...

i think that in secondary, friends are hard to find. everyone has their own personality. unfortunately for me, i got into a not-so-good school. and met many people whom seemed to me like 'ah lians' or even bullies.

there are people i met that i dun even know them. or they dun like your character, the way you walk or even worst, how you look. as long as they dun like[ those mentioned above], they'll bad-mouth you, or even trying to get gifts, for you on your birthday, just to create a mockery session.

ill-fated, you may say, but the fact is, im one of 'their' victims. so yea, it's good to be cautious about people around you.

yup, so that's all i'm gonna say.
hope that none of you[readers] will fall into my situation.

anyways, jia you pei fen!!
you did well!
cherios! =)

Anonymous said...

coolcoolllman...

Anonymous said...

i realiie do hope dat dtf n mei yun can be friends 4eva... & i do hope dat i can hav a trustable fren 4eva too...

woei chyi said...

嗨!其实我也是遇到和大头芬一样的情况。我有个交了7年的朋友,在一瞬间就变成了陌生人。或许这就是命运吧。我常试去把我们之间的友情搞好,可是却非常的难。我们上了理工学院就很少与对方见面。虽然我们读的是同样的课程,但是因为我们不同班所以很少见面。话也少了。我们各自有自己的朋友,所以我们俩就比较少与对方述说心事。因为这样我们就开始每update对方的事。渐渐的我们疏远了。我真的觉得很遗憾,毕竟我也认识了7年多了。我真的不想失去她这位朋友。

Anyway,希望大头芬会在遇到美云。也希望你们能在成为好朋友。或许大奶彬真得很忙呢? 我想你们俩可以找个时间谈谈吧!:)

加油哦!!!

Anonymous said...

hmm. i think eveyone more or less will have this kind of experience. just that everyone is sort of accepting this change and not doing anything about it. 毕竟,大家都有自己得走的路. 和别人该走的一定有些差别. the only constant thing is change, remember?

but i still hope DTF can 再次和美云联络 (:

anw, suggestions for making the blog nicer. can go blogskins.com to have a look. mayb can add some caricatures of DTF & her friends! (:

woei chyi said...

嗨!其实我也是遇到和大头芬一样的情况。我有个交了7年的朋友,在一瞬间就变成了陌生人。或许这就是命运吧。我常试去把我们之间的友情搞好,可是却非常的难。我们上了理工学院就很少与对方见面。虽然我们读的是同样的课程,但是因为我们不同班所以很少见面。话也少了。我们各自有自己的朋友,所以我们俩就比较少与对方述说心事。因为这样我们就开始每update对方的事。渐渐的我们疏远了。我真的觉得很遗憾,毕竟我也认识了7年多了。我真的不想失去她这位朋友。

Anyway,希望大头芬会再遇到美云。也希望你们能在成为好朋友。或许大奶彬真得很忙呢? 我想你们俩可以找个时间谈谈吧!:)

加油哦!!!

Xavi said...

s8436958f分手了,真的还可以做朋友吗? 我也希望... 但心里还是会对她念念不忘..我也想再和她做朋友, 但是她会吗?hai...

Anonymous said...

dis is my 1st time reading, and den really addicted liao, always like to read those kind of school life stories, so really like dtf world!!
i feels myself a bit like dtf too, don like to talk to ppl dat don really know, not i hate them or wut, just scare mayb when started talking wif them sometimes my words will offence them, afterall we don really know each other, hehe. so always stick to few frens oni dat can really chat wif..
den oso just met my old frens dat lost contact long time ago since primary, use to be so gd fren wif him but now don even know how to say hi, haha... really hope can back to last time, guess too late now..
anyway jia you dtf, no matter wut, i agree everyone has their own "you dian", so be proud!!

Anonymous said...

虽然每个人对友情有不同的看法,但这并不代表DTF,你有的朋友很少。
我自己也会像你一样,有比较好的朋友= 有什么心事都能说出来,不用怕得罪他们。
无论如何,DTF 加油!很希望你能再次和Ah Toot 在一起.
PEI FEN!
加油!
XD~

Anonymous said...

Yo Pei Fen! You neglected your english blog? haha, hav a geat day ahead!

Anonymous said...

DTF... dun be sad... everyone will come across this phrase.. I used to have a lot of good friends too..but disappear once they know that I am attached..

Sometimes ppl have their reasons for not contacting you... Just take things one at a time.. who knows... you and meiyun may have the affinity to meet and become good friends once again.. =)

Cheer up and jia you yo....^-^

Anonymous said...

why does friendship drifts apart whenever we are promoter to a different school. Though the distance between this two schools are near, but it seems so difficult to remove the walls which is building up in between...

deedee said...

i guess we have to make an effort to make the friendship stays... or unless u really have such strong affinity with that friend. like i am still best friends with some of my best friends from primary school... although we went through different secondary schools, JCs and universities... and now working in different fields. and also through a time when there were no internet, no email or msn, no mobile phone, and not even pager. if we make an effort to keep the friendship alive, same school or not, it doesn't really matter, does it? but of course, it takes 2 hands to clap. both u and your friends have to make that effort to stay in contact always. :) cheers! and Peifen jiayou!

Anonymous said...

Sorry, Im jus a passer-by reader.. can i jus ask anyone of u here, is this story a real life story? or jus dtf create de? im kind of lost thou.could anyone tell me? thanks..

btw, dtf story is interesting.. (:

Anonymous said...

hey...

well,good things always come to an end... but i don't blieve in giving up.. so, if i were u, i would nvr give up such a beautiful friendship.

show her u really care by sending her an e-mail, and if u noe her address, it would be better. letter always do better than any other electrical device.

but anithing u do.. don't 4get her...don't give up either...
i nvr liked it when ppl give up on mi.. so i hope u will understand..

cheers!!!

● shadajieeeee said...

DA TOU FEN JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU .!!
hahas .!

Anonymous said...

大头芬和美云的故事然我回想起许多中学时的回忆。记得在中学时,我也曾有过那么好的一个朋友..somehow due to our childish thinking and quarellings, we got drifted apart..

Really apart.. We only managed to get back into contact when she has already migrated to another country. Come to think of it, we usually do not know how to cherish and appreciate when the ones you care about are beside you. It is always the case whereby you realise it only when they left. An important lesson to me.
我真得很希望大头芬和美云可以跟以前一样,再次互相珍惜对方。。友谊尽可贵。

Anonymous said...

hi .. Chun Leng ( King^Boy ) here .. I and Da Tou Fen are about the same for example like : I do not have alot of friend and my character is those Nei Xiang type and I can understand how it feel if one of my few friends are gone one day .. and I hope tat wont happen to me and Da Tou Fen and I hope tat she will alaways be with her few friends if possible make more friend .. ^_^

Cya .. Take Care .. Bye ..

Anonymous said...

i too hope that DTF can become good frenx wif mei yun again.. and i do believe that there are things such as frenz foreva... cos i do haf a pretty good fren and our friendship lasted for 5yrs even though we may not be in the same class and course now.. i tink there is no such things as 'no time to contact', but it is jus whether either party made the effort to contact each other, as time is jus used as an excuse.. sincerely hopin tt DTF and mei yun could be frenz again.. =)

jia you(^_-)